Sleep explodes

Sleep explodes 

When I was young 

and something went wrong 

people would say 

For crying out loud 

then over the years of life 

I heard them say 

Bloody hell and what the…………

now in my my older years

when terror comes in my sleep

I find myself crying out loud

Bloody hell

What the………… 

is happening to me

one doctor says it’s a sleep disorder 

here take a pill

another doctor says it’s PTSD 

here take a pill  

when the past implodes and my sleep explodes

I cannot see the face of fear

so I chill forget the pill

talk it out

and now I’ve found my words

i’ll write it out.

Andrew Ballard 

2020